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Saturday, March 12, 2005

hmms..

dunno why. just felt like blogging more. yikes. lols. blogged twice in da afternoon le. one was eaten up by blogger so there came the second one. learned smthing. we should always copy and paste our entries in notepad before publishing. yea.

actually..

i had many things to blog about just now. but now. mind block. whoops. maybe is because there's too many things ba. nvm. enjoy typing out my thoughts also. so i will keep typing! =D

spent my day at home ba. morning seven plus woke up. was woken up by smses i guess. bout bball and stjohn again. hahs.

a bit lame la. organise everything then also nvr go. hmms. wells. it's over. gonna ask for one next saturday? see if they can ba. really want to play. and just have fun. think xiuwen too.

quite a sian day. finish fruits basket book seven. listened to jay's cd. slept. stoned. haha. that's all i did. boring rite? T_T

guess tmr also quite sian de ba.

dun feel like doing any hw lo.

enjoying myself with jay music. lols. nicee nicee. =D zui hou de zhan yi quite nice. hui dao guo qu also. hui dao guo qu especially. triggers ppl's minds to start thinking bout the past. yepps.

***

think i really really give too much stress to myself. just cannot take it as easy as what others could. people ask me dun care ; relax ; dun think too much. but i just cannot help it la. lols. will keep thinking and thinking. especially when i'm alone and will go into deep thoughts naturally. then it continues. somemore dun really think optimistically. hahs.

my troubling nature. hai. just worry too much i guess. easy to be affected by things too. then start to think. and the whole cycle starts.

then everything just look so stressing. so uptight. cannot fang xia qu. lols. this is me i guess. trying to take things more easily. thought i doubt i would.

mindblock again. --''

maybe i should just stop here? lols.

going to sleep soon le ba. hope tmr wun be so sian. =X

tatas!

burp; 3/12/2005 10:56:00 PM

ahhhh.

what happened to the long post that i typed on yesterday's x-country?!?!

it went poof! and was gone in a cloud of smoke. --''

it was really long! omg. was at the last part le. hmph.

another thing pissing me off!

it was one of the longest posts le! my gawd. where did it go to! T_T

***

nvm. i shall cool down. think i will blog again ba. would be a waste if i nvr blog bout it. yepps. just that it would definitely be a shorter one ya?

x-country.

did st john duty. quite okay la. since there's no casualty at the position where me and tuling was stationed at.

three.three did not win. three.five did. must try harder next year yea?

then went to gather behind the tents for the scheduled two.four gathering. accompanied lipang to wait for naf to come and get her bag. yepps.

everyone was undecided yet and was discussing. so in the meanwhile, py chloe cheryl and me went to change. we were saying that when we come back, the ppl would have gone home. i thought it was just a casual remark. but who knows. when we reach the spot, we saw everyone packing their bags and preparing to head home. --''

what happened to the ppl who organised the gathering?

i mean it's rare that we get to come to east coast ma. so might as well make full use of it and play ma. why go home? chloe was pissed. i was puzzled.

but fortunately, the "saviours" came. mama and papa pulled us to play in the waters. and we agreed. leaving the others to go home. since they want to, then we play ourselves lo.

yepps. had fun in the water till one plus.

then had some problems regarding bathing. lols. no extra clothes. no towels. no slippers. we came unprepared. =X

walked a long long way before finding the showering room. we look like people stranded on an island. --'' cuz we went barefooted. then was hungry and tired. then finished off the bananas evelyn took.

but there was two sec four seniors we met on the way. zijun's friends i suppose. omg. they're kind. they were on their bikes and we ran like madwomen to them and dumped our bags to them. they were willing to carry it for us under the hot hot sun till we find the showering room. nice people. cheers.

then yea. of course we found the showering room at last and bathed. anderson's towels was brought into good use. rare sight. lols. though some wore their originally wet clothes back, but it was more comfortable now since we bathed. yepps.

--fast forward--

then it rained. just when we wanted to get out of east coast. --'' suay.

got kind of lost in east coast. everyone told us different things when we asked them for the location of bus stop with bus number thirty.six. so yea. we walked and walked. think it was three plus liao and we're still walking. still wandering around.

this means that we're walking since one plus till 3 plus. tiring leh.

somemore walking with wet clothes. lols. then gave up walking. took taxi to suntec city's kfc for our "lunch". reach there 4 plus le. --'' papa they all continued walking and when we finished eating, they reached kfc. then we chatted. yepps. bout loads of stuff. chat and chat and chat. six plus then we leave the place. haha. whoops.

took mrt back home. yea. reach home eight plus le. wooo. late. =X

was really tired le. then wanted to bathe. but smses started to come. there were people asking me if there were bball tmr. people asking me who are going. and loads more. so i had to go online and confirm with everyone.

i was quite pissed off. many told me dunno ; not sure ; tmr then confirm.

then others kept rushing me.

everything was in a mess. please confirm faster next time yea? my hands were very suan lo. keep smsing and typing for one hour. non-stop. --''

lucky chaotaboy msged. if he wasn't there, i would have blown my top and exploded into pieces. real pissed. but wells. he was kind enough to let me fa xie on. =D thanks thanks thaaaaaaaaaanks! =PpP owe it all to him.

then haven settle st john stuff too. like i said. everything was in a total mess.

then after everything, i realised i only had 90 free smses left for the whole month. how to survive? but this wasn't the worst..

after settling everything, no one wanted to go. left me and xiuwen. then we decided not to go then let it be a two.five gathering. i didn't go for st john either. was a lil' going to have a fever. had a mild headache then. everything was whirling and whirling in my mind. so yea. my smses went to the drain. my hands suffered. my hp suffered. and nothing was gained in the end.

going to get a scolding at the end of this month when my hp bill comes.

so yea. i spend the morning sleeping and onlining lo. lame isn't it?

then morning still got ppl ask me bball stuff. then ask me why i nvr go and others la. haiyo. moody liao la. still ask. --''

***

so sian lo. wanted to go for bball one ma.

if anyone of you are reading this, i'm not angry with you all. but please confirm faster next time can? if not i dunno how to confirm who are going and one leads to more yea?

think i give stress to myself ba. i m one who dun like to have unsettled things lying around. so i always make it a point to settle things as soon as i could. yepps. so always end up getting myself into a mess la. my nature. lols. cannot help also de la. cannot dun care. ><''

but i want to have a three.three bball outing again next week can? hope it would work out. i really look forward to it. yepps.

got others i update later ba.

think this post long enough le.

tatas`!

burp; 3/12/2005 01:21:00 PM